Every summer for as long as I can remember? I’ve gotten sunburned.
This summer is no exception.
And right now??? My shoulders itch like crazy!!!
*sigh* It’s not that I don’t apply sunscreen, because I do.
It’s that I forget to RE-apply sunscreen. *double sigh*
Believe it or not? At one time in my life (like 4 years ago…seems like a life time ago already!), I had aspirations to stay pure pin-up girl porcelain pasty white.
To say that didn’t work all that well would probably be the understatement of my entire life. Seriously.
See here’s my problem:
I like to be outside in the summer.
I like to camp. I like to hike. I like to do gardening and yard work. I like to mow grass (seriously. And no I am not suffering from heat stroke). I love to swim and fish and canoe.
I would rather be outside sitting in the sun and the heat doing nothing than I would inside in the air conditioning. Honest.
Why? I have zero idea.
Okay. Maybe I have a slight idea.
Being outside is FREE. There’s stuff to see and do and learn. There’s amazing awe and wonder all around.
See, I was very spoiled as a child: I HAD TO go outside and play. Why? Mom said so. Gram & Papa said so.
Besides…we didn’t have air conditioning. Chances were it was much cooler outside, under the trees.
And? We had just spent all winter inside. There was STUFF to do outside: whether it was playing and running or watching birds or camping or growing stuff or keeping the yard beautiful. It wasn’t inside. We had had enough of being inside. And it was Wisconsin. It would be winter again soon enough.
So I go outside every chance I get.
And every summer? I get red…then tan—ish. If I don’t blister and peel, I get tan.
My shoulders are going to peel. I know it. I maaaaaaay have gotten sunburn on top of my sunburn. Ummm…oops…
And this won’t be the only sunburn of the summer, either. I’ve got days in the next week that I know I’m going to be outside. And I’ve already planned to wear certain things so that the areas I had covered last week can get some color. Hey. If I’m stuck having tan lines? I’m having as few un-tanned areas as I am comfortable with.
…which, unfortunately, are still way larger than I am happy with myself about. 1) because I should have been working hard on getting to the best me for a looooooong time already…and I’ve procrastinated again. And 2) because I’m not okay with not being okay with my body.
So the question -for myself. I don’t need answers. I need to figure out what works for me- is: How do I manage to acquire color without the initial stage being RED? Because…ITCHY. Like super itchy right.this.moment. OMG…it itches so damn bad. All.I.want.to.do.is.SCRATCH….
Its just healing sunburn.
I’ve got this.
After all? It happens every summer…