How difficult would it be for my life to take the “calendar” approach? One day at a time. You know, instead of pitching them at me 4 or 5 at a time.
This is some how totally my fault. I know this.
Doesn’t make moments of my day any less frustrating at times.
I walked into the diner tonite. (For record? The date is January 14th)
There is a sign on the door about their Valentine’s Day special.
In a month.
Shall we start with the fact that St. Valentine’s Day isn’t ANYTHING like you plan to observe it as? No? Why not? Oh. Hallmark. Right. My bad…
Anyway. I feel like my birthday was YESTERDAY….and here we are, planning for the MIDDLE OF FEBRUARY?!?!?!? Already.
I can’t take this. Some where, I lost all of December and 3/4 of November. I am not prepared to lose January as well!!!
Alright. I’ve got this. I have to. I have no choice, at all.
How in the world I’m going to do it, I’m not sure yet (I can’t say that I’ve ever put together a complete and through hard-copy press packet in my entire life!!! This is going to take some research, first thing).
I like the challenges that life presents to me and that are handed to me because they PUSH ME beyond what I think. That’s very important, since I’m constantly attempting to be better than I currently am.
Some days, it simply becomes full to the brim. And weeding out what no longer fits takes time as well. Figuring out exactly what is worth continuing? Figuring out what I need to continue in order to complete what is in front of me? It all takes sorting. Sorting takes time.
Time is the issue most days. Okay, pretty much every day.
I can plot and plan and email and implement and moniter and even DO every single day…
…and I’m not done yet.
I know that it’s part of living and making a living.
And I really ENJOY what I do.
And I’m treasured to have some incredibly fun times to unwind for hours at a pop once in a while!
There’s something else. I can’t quite explain it.
Part of it, I’m aware as I struggle to locate the words to best express what’s in my mind currently, is fear. Fear for a lot of reasons.
I mean, let’s be real: if I can’t even put it into words? Can I? Should I? Will I be able to? Has it been done? What about the reprocussions? *sigh*
I know…those are the problems, Trix. How’s about you find the solutions.
Bad news: Those are in regards to the solutions I’ve already found.
I’m not a negative person. I simply know that just because you’ve recognized a solution doesn’t mean there won’t be PROBLEMS with the solution. Find the problems, solve for “y”. Yeah. I’m there…
Problem example? Solar paneling for electrical energy consumptive use. Sounds easy: buy solar panels, have wired and installed. Done.
Not so much.
Do you know you need PERMITS??? And shall we, for a moment, consider the cost…
…let’s leave alone the facts that finding installation services is a nightmare.
So I start digging, and along the way I find many many many more problems into this project. Some of them are simple. Some I know nothing about and must research and email questions on. Some are complex and need to be broken down and solved.
It all takes time.
There are moments that I feel like I learned NOTHING during my childhood. I mean, I totally know different. I simply feel like it…